Too free to write a blog? / 寫部落格是因為很閒?

Some people might wonder why I wanted to create this blog? Do I have a lot of free time? First of all, I’m not very free lol… Many people don’t know I own United Pups. Every month I need to deal with many hundreds of things such as products, orders, posts, returns, exchanges, questions, manufactures and pictures. I already forgot how to relax myself. Because I work for myself, I need to work until the last minute before my labor. I don’t want myself to be in a comfort zone even though I’m pregnant. Calie is a sweet girl. She rarely made me feel tired during the pregnancy. I only had few dizziness spells at the early stages. Other than that, I keep myself pretty busy.

I didn’t tell many of my friends about my pregnancy but that doesn’t mean I want to hide or something. I just don’t want to get attention. I feel once you tell people you are pregnant, they all want to see your pictures with your big belly. So instead I prefer to enjoy the whole pregnancy by myself until the end. So far I think to be a mom is a miracle. I kind of love my big belly body. I think it is beautiful and impressive to see your body change. So I tried to write down everything that has happened this year. It would be a precious memory to me or Calie.

Sometimes I feel sorry for Eddie because I keep his life very busy too. Everytime we go outside, he likes to take me to as many stores as possible. He thinks I finally got out of the house. One day we went out for dinner and came home after 9PM. I started to prepare a post for the next day. I didn’t know what he was doing. I asked him later. He said he was looking for an umbrella. So weird right? He could do whatever he wants. However, I was mad at him that night. I thought he wasted time looking for an umbrella. I didn’t talk to him until the next day. The good thing was he would try to communicate with me, and I wouldn’t hesitate to tell him what was bothering me.  I told him that he always stays in the restroom too long. And he shouldn’t spend so much time looking for an umbrella. We have so many things we need to do before the due date. Then, he finally told me that I should take easy sometimes. I was pushing too much. That’s why the restroom is the only place that makes him feel quiet. He doesn’t only have his job, he also needs to help me on United Pups and house work. Well… I feel sorry I didn’t stand in his shoes. Also I feel impressed he was able to handle me that long.

So is my life boring and free? Not at all! It’s 2:42AM. I want to finish this blog before bed. I know I have an OB appointment tomorrow but time is gold. Sleeping is good but I have many things I want to do…

有些人可能會有疑問為何我要弄一個部落格，我是不是很閒？其實我沒有很閒耶哈哈…應該有很多人不知道我正在經營United Pups，每個月我要處理的事情是好幾百件的事，包括商品、訂單、社群的文章、退貨、交換貨、顧客的問題、廠商、還有商品拍攝等等很多瑣碎的事情，我都已經不知道該如何放鬆自己了。因為我是為了自己的事業在努力，所以我必須要工作到生產前的最後一分鐘，我也不希望因為懷孕就把自己處在舒適圈，也好加在Calie是一個很貼心的女兒，她很少讓我在懷孕過程覺得疲憊，我只有在初期有過幾次的頭暈，除此之外，我好像還一直挺忙碌的。

我沒有跟很多人說我懷孕的事情，並不是刻意要隱瞞或是什麼其他的原因，其實我只是不想要被關注，因為只要跟別人說懷孕了，很多人都會想要看你大肚子的照片，所以我頃向自己享受這整個孕期的過程直到最後。至今我覺得作為一個媽媽是一件很神奇的事情，我很喜歡自己大肚子的身體，看到身體的改變是很美、很不可思議的，因此我盡量紀錄下這一年所發生的事情跟過程，這會是我和Calie很珍貴的回憶。

有時候我也覺得對Eddie感到很抱歉，因為我的關係，他的生活也變得很忙碌。每一次我們外出，他都會盡量帶我到處走、到處逛，他覺得我終於踏出門口了！！有一天我們出去外面吃飯，回到家後已經晚上９點多了，我開始準備隔天的社群文章，我並不知道他回到家後在做什麼，我之後問他，他說他在找一隻雨傘，很怪我幹嘛問他在做什麼，他可以做他要做的事情，但是我卻因此對他生悶氣，因為我覺的他浪費時間在找一隻雨傘上，我當天就懶的跟他講話，直到隔天，我們彼此之間的優點就是溝通，他一定會問我心裡有什麼事情過不去，然後我就會不遲疑的跟他說我生氣的點，像是老是蹲廁所太久、浪費時間找一隻很不錯的雨傘之類的，我們有多少事情在Calie出生前要完成，然後他最後跟我說，我有時候要放鬆一下，我老是太緊迫逼人，導致他覺得蹲廁所的時候是最平靜的時候，他每天不只有他自己的工作要處理，他還要幫我處理一些United Pups的事情及家務。。。好吧我覺得很抱歉，我有時候也要站在他的角度幫他設想一下，不過我覺得他可以容忍我這麼久也蠻厲害的。

所以我的生活有很無聊很閒嗎？真的沒有耶！現在已經是半夜2:42，我想要完成這篇再去睡，我知道我明天有產檢，但是時間就是金錢，睡眠雖然很重要，但是我還是有很多事情想要做…