Mommy mood / 媽媽的心情

Today I had a chance to talk with one of my best friends. She was concerned about my due date. After speaking with her, I just realize she is in a depression. She said the reason why she didn’t talk to me for awhile was because she didn’t want to influence my mood. My mood would also influence the baby. I want to tell all my friends that I’m fine. Talk to me if you need a person to listen. I’m always here for you. Even though I’m in the US, I still check Line, Facebook, and Instagram everyday. You can easily find me. Never ever feel embarrassed or sorry.

I agree my emotions have become very unpredictable. One time I heard one of my best friend’s dog passed away. I told Eddie about it and I cried like crazy. I couldn’t stop. Sometimes I see my belly showing some marks. I get so worried and I compare myself to other mommies. I was so depressed at the moment because I felt I was so ugly. The next day, I saw the mark was gone. I was realized it was because the pants were just too tight. Many little tiny things can change my mood so quickly. However, Calie is on the way. I hope everything will become normal soon.  

今天有個機會跟一個好朋友通話，她一開始是關心我的預產期，後來我才知道，她正處在低潮，她說她之所以沒有跟我聯絡是因為怕影響我的心情，怕我的情緒也會影響寶寶的心情，其實我想說，不要怕會影響我的心情，有需要一個聆聽的人可以隨時找我，雖然我在美國，但是還是可以隨時找到我，我每天都有看Line、臉書、Instagram，所以千萬不要覺得害羞或是抱歉會影響到我。

我承認我變得有點情緒化，有一次聽到朋友狗狗去世，我轉述給Eddie，真的是哭到不要不要的，無法停止; 還有幾次看到自己肚皮有幾條紅紅的線，我就變得超級擔心憂鬱，會把自己跟其他媽媽比較，因為覺得自己變得很醜，但是隔天看到紅紅的線不見了，才發現原來只是昨天的褲頭太緊。很多諸如此類的芝麻蒜皮小事都可以很快的改變我的心情，趕快卸貨吧!希望這樣的狀況也可以快點恢復正常了