Newborn baby is tough / 新生兒真的很難搞

It has been two weeks after we left hospital. Nobody gave me any hint that the first month of having a newborn baby would be challenging. Even though we have A-Rod and Bailey, taking care of a baby is still very different compared to taking care our puppies. This is definitely another level of parenting. To be honest, I feel taking care of puppies is way easier 🙁

I remember the first day we came home. I only slept for two hours. Second day was better but I still didn’t have enough sleep as usual. Life had totally changed. I don’t have time for watching tv shows. I can’t play games. I can’t do my own things. I haven’t become used to all the changes. I felt like I spent all my time taking care of this baby. Then I cried. So funny I didn’t cry during the labor but I cried because of life change. Now I totally understand why people always say that raising a kid isn’t easy.

Calie is just getting started to get used to this world. When she was in my tummy, her space was very small. For her, life has been changed too. She doesn’t feel secure. So she cried. Sometimes I hold her during her sleep. I see her shaking without any interruption. It is kinda sad seeing your daughter like that. I know it takes time for her to get used to this new environment but still.

I remember seeing my mom take care of my sister when she was born. I saw my sister took care her daughter. Now it’s my turn. I thought it is easy but I’m wrong. It’s not easy at all. One of my friends reminded me to sleep more before baby is born because once baby is born I wouldn’t have enough sleep. I regret I didn’t listen to him 🙁

我們出院至今也兩個禮拜了，之前都沒有人跟我提醒照顧新生兒會很辛苦，就算我們有照顧A-Rod和Bailey的經驗，但是照顧寶寶跟照顧小狗狗還真不同，這可是育兒的另外一種階段，說真的，我真的覺得照顧小狗狗容易多了 🙁

我記得第一天我們回到家，那天我就只有睡兩個小時，第二天比較好一些，但是我還是沒有像之前一樣有足夠的睡眠，生活作息真的完全改變了，我不能追劇、我不能打電動、我沒有自己的時間做我要做的事情，我真不習慣生活的改變，我覺得我所有的時間都在照顧這小寶寶上面，然後忍不住就落淚了，好好笑生產我都沒有哭，現在卻因為生活的不適應而哭，難怪老是有人說扶養孩子到大可不容易。

Calie她也是剛開始適應這個新世界，當她在我肚子裡面的時候，空間很狹小，所以對她來說生活也改變了，現在的她很沒有安全感，所以她用哭來表達，有時候我抱著她入睡，會看到她沒有原因的抖著，看到自己的女兒這樣的狀態我也會有一點難過，我知道她需要一點時間去適應，但是還是希望她的感受可以好過一點。

我還記得看我媽媽照顧我妹妹當她出生的時候，我也看我妹妹照顧她的女兒，現在輪到我了，我以為會很簡單但是我真的錯了，照顧小寶寶真的很不容易。我還記得有一個朋友在我生之前提醒我多睡一點，因為寶寶出生後我就不會有足夠的睡眠了，我真後悔沒有聽他的 🙁